beautiful... it was a wonderful day.. and i don't know what sparked within me when i pulled myself out of bed in the early morning fog that decided to go running.. all the way down the ski roads into the fog and rain and cold until my lungs hurt and i ran out of path.. whatever it was, it was worth it.. i felt amazing even if it was gray and quiet outside the soul inside was dancing with every song on my radio and all around the empty school house all morning <3 it felt as if the energy flowing out of my fingertips was magic.. and i felt so in tune with the universe and all of its mysterious connectivity.. just the inner-most feeling of contentment.. that everything is going to be alright. Almost as if yesterday served as the break-up from whatever egotisical life i am trying to move away from.. into being today, full of life and love and pure joy for having the life and opportunities that i do.. thankful as well for days like yesterday, because without them to compare to how would be able to appreciate today? .. I was dancing when the phone rang and took me completely by surprise - i thought for sure Becca would have left for classes already, but turns out she wasn't leaving until 1 and i had a ride to town if i wanted it. :) and then i really knew everything was ok.. i had something to look forward to and things to be grateful for all around me.. Changed into real clothes and met her down at the Inn for the drive. It is 60 miles into Kalispell and we spent the whole time discussing life and death and soul and universe.. everything under the sun it seemed, but it made the time pass quickly and we were soon in the Target parking lot dropping me off while she went to class. Couldn't tell you the last time i pushed a cart around a grocery store by myself.. but it felt good.. being back to a real life and excited for the new set of watercolors and canvas i was able to buy. with all this spare time this winter i really want to be able to paint again.. especially with all of these magnificent pictures of the tetons and of course everything incredible i have here in montana.. oh so excited :) oh tetons.... how i miss you.... ill play later.. for now it is beautiful glacier.. the sunset all the way home following the cliffs and crystal turquoise river.. the pink mountains in the fading light.. the warm cabin fires lighting in between the forests of pole pines.. the golden fields ready for fall.. the perfect feeling in the air.. the chill in between the shadow spaces.. hearing mom's voice and talking with dad <3> everything is purely magical.. i could feel it like the wishes floating in the wind today.. sitting outside the Inn as fall took full force of everything around me... just beautiful. read an awesome quote today about being wounded and how it is through the wounds of life the spirit is able to enter and flourish.. we must have the pain to appreciate the joy, we are all growing and learning and everything that happens, every rain drop is falling for a purpose.. it doesn't matter if everything else is changing, that truth will always remain the same.. and there we find peace <3 i love you and miss you all of these feelings.. so strongly.
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