oct 13 2 010

today i felt like the happiest person in the entire world... it hit me just as the the slightest breeze picked up the leaves of the aspens and the golden light from the sun behind filtered through their dance casting the most perfect shadows along the path i was clearing.. I could see the beautiful blue of the mountains.. the crystal turquoise of the sky.. the clouds, pure white against the jagged rocks.. the brilliant oranges of the trees tracing along the river.. everything became so still and perfect, like i was placed in someone else day dream of such a breath taking paradise.. I was alone, outside, working on clearing the grounds around the cabins.. sweating.. filthy dirty.. and in such a bliss it is hard to find the words to capture the pure happiness i felt all over.. Surrounded by nothing but nature, hearing only the whispers of the trees and the song of joy from my heart. I felt so at home.. so content with everything around me.. so so thankful to be here.. i just cannot explain it. right then i had so many urges... to cry, to scream, to hug the world if only it was possible... to text everyone and tell them i was in heaven.. that working maintenance at a ranch in wyoming is what i want to do for the rest of my life.. just so happy. the pure happiness when your heart finds peace and everything is right.. the happiness i wish for everyone to find in their lives.. it is the perfect balance and I feel so blessed to have experienced it. thank you..

And So it is my life for now :) waking up in the midst of the most beautiful mountains i have ever laid eyes one.. walk to watch the sunrise and the peaks slowly melting into the pink and golden light, breathing in the 18 degree autumn air that freezes your lungs but is so worth it <3..> go for my run after wards, home to shower, and up to the lodge and to my favorite place to sit right on the deck and watch the sun sink lower into the sky, right between the crests of the tetons.. watching the clouds get softer and the light fade.. so quietly it slips into twilight.. and so beautiful. the walk back is as cold as the morning's as the world slowly becomes dark..a sense of complete.. of acceptance.. of sheer gratitude for a day of blessing and of beauty, reminding myself so often how lucky to have had the opportunity to return and feel so loved by such a place. i am truly in love.