thursday :)
it is amazing to me how in this massive, limitless sky.. that not one single cloud came pass through the entire day long. Sometime i do not think that the sky can possibly get more clear, so brilliantly shining even in the absence of the stark clouds.. like the facets of a diamond, every angle just seems to explode with light. Nothing to me can compare to thy sky here, i feel as if i could see it touch the ocean it is so close and goes on forever.. You follow the beautiful blue and in every place it reaches horizon is just one more beautiful scene. I love how the sunlight makes the mountains to the north turn purple as the Tetons fade into their looming and mysterious blue... and always those aspens..
today was beautiful, a perfect indian summer, fall day.. perfect sunshine from the moment it breached the sage brush out front, until i watched it sink into the dark, navy bliss of those amazing mountains. Woke up early enough that my walk wasn't in the total dark. around to my aspen tree with the mountain blue birds, back through the woods behind the cabins, back to mine.. and the warm... changed into work clothes and went up to the gym to start the landscaping projects Rhi and I had begun yesterday. The frost was soon to melt as the sun started higher into the sky, and before long we were sweating in our eskimo clothes working to clear the trees around the spa, raking and moving wood..
felt great to be working, to be in the sunshine, with the most beautiful view and the prettiest sky.. sneaking off early to go hike and take some pictures.. watching the wishes float and day dreaming.. started to climb to the bench and found a lovely sunny spot right on the hill to read for a while, forgetting the world and worries and everything else that has been playing hide and seek with my mind.. thinking about colorado.. wondering if the mountains there could ever compare to the ones I am grateful for everyday.. took the long walk back to the cabin.. admiring the way the sunlight makes the softest shadows on the beige grasses in between the pine trees.. the red of the bittersweet against the aspen bark.. the dark burgundy of the ground where the leaves have fallen.. stopping to watch the palest sliver of moon appear above the crest of the hills, lofted right above the glittering yellow leaves where the black crows were flying.. an iridescent blue in the shining light against their black.. the sea of sage brush almost a sea foam green against the base of the brilliant blue.. wanting to soak up every feeling of the experience and just breath it .. just as the universe flows through your soul..
just to a part of it all..
A shower was amazing, warm to feel the chill run off with the water.. a wonderful feeling of clean clothes to walk up to the lodge and watch the sunset. Started my second book today, i love the feeling of being totally immersed into someone else's thoughts for a change.. thankful to have a perfect spot to sit.. a front row seat to something so breath taking. Watching the day unfold into the familiar rays of golden sunlight.. another day complete.. with just as many wonderful things to be thankful for.. but yet, still lingers the familiar feeling of empty.. the same small spot somewhere in the depths of my heart i feel the hole that has yet to be filled.. that something that is always missing, that usually i can ignore.. but always some days when the sun sets just right and the darkness begins to fall.. the hole begins to beckon and i feel it just as strong.. yearning for that shared love for this magical life taking place.
Sometimes i don't know how you do it.. but then i guess it is the familiarity of completeness that keeps you going.. if only i could share with you.. so much beauty to be held and so much love to be known..
thankful today for the untouchable happiness of being here, for the irreplaceable beauty no matter where you look, for the perfect hillsides to lay in the sunshine.. naked :).. for the falcons flying in the endless sky, the songs of the crows.. the warmth of the sunlight on your skin, the fall wind to remind you it is October.. the perfect feeling of being alone.. and the longing not to be.. for the amazing-ness of new running shoes.. ridiculous loud music to dance around like you're crazy to.. trying to remember how to speak when he talks to you.. watching the rays of sunset settle between the crevices of the peaks.. gold light trickling into faded blue..
catching your heart beat.. just to be silent as the magical world around you listens <3
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