Sunday, October 17, 2010

oct 17 2010.. beautiful sunday



sometimes we get so caught up in what should be.. what should be happening, what we should be doing.. how should we be making our lives better.. our days more complete... our existence have more purpose.. We spend so much time worrying over these things, endless hours thinking and planning and contemplating the possibilities... When in reality everything we could ever need.. or ever want is right in front of our eyes, right at our fingertips.. I look back now and feel so selfish for every wanting anything more than the breath taking display I have right before me.. the simplest, but yet most beautiful gift i could ever ask for. I dreamed of these mountains.. these days where I could spend every moment appreciating there beauty and purity, breathing this air.. being a part of these special moments, here. I don't want to look back and watch how i wasted this time alone to grow and see how i spent it trying to figure everything else possible out.
there will always be other options and opportunities, but if we cannot enjoy the "amazing" we have, how is that fair? how can we ever be able to enjoy anything that way?
sometimes i let myself get caught up.. wondering why i am here and what purpose am i serving.. making myself feel as though i am wasting time working away my life and accomplishing nothing. when it is the very opposite, and of this i am sure. I knew I wanted to be here and with every cell in body i felt it.. and now i am.. I followed my heart back to this beautiful place and it is here for now that i am living, and until today I never allowed myself to fully understand that.. like there was always the watchful part of me whispering that it wasn't alright. but in every beautiful way possible, it is. I love being with these mountains, feeling this sunshine.. being able to walk to the wedding pasture and hold my breath just watching the clouds transform the sky and the storms blow across the ranges.. honestly i believe i was scared, this just seemed to perfect.. and for now i am just going to let it <3

It was a beautiful sunday.. the clouds were blowing in with the winter snows that played on top of the tetons all day.. Below however it was bright sunshine and almost warm when you were out of the wind. Went for a long hike up behind the cabins where it is so quiet and still.. almost hard to believe someplace so alive can be so content.. it is magic being there, in every way in every shadow.. every different outlook the way the light decides to catch the breeze.. it has to be alright.. it is the most realest feeling and i am captivated by it. I am thankful to be here, just as i am so thankful to have the other opportunities in life that may follow.. but for now this is here, with me and i am in heaven.<3

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